Eek! I Missed A Day.

Happy Thanksgiving a little late.

Sorry for missing a day or two.  I will try to update.

Spent Wednesday night driving to his folks and Thursday with his family.  Had to drive back early this morning so he could attempt to get ot work on time.  He was about a half hour late.

Still on my period for some reason.  Today is the seventh day, and it better end soon, because I’m almost out of pads.  I can understand the length considering my body is undergoing a huge change, but it’s getting tiresome.  The cramps seem to never end and it’s killing me.  I’ve been trying to tell my body enough already, but it just doesn’t listen.  Oh well… guess I’ll deal… If it doesn’t end by tomorrow, I’m going to try to see a doctor (and not a walk-in clinic either).  I’m gonna try to get into that AAA clinic around Dec 14 for an ultrasound to see how far along I am, so I will definitely keep you posted.

Joe was talking about doing a V-Log based on all of this, which is funny because that’s what I’m doing here… only in words and not in video.  I will be sure to link to his videos, so you can see his side.

Family is on their way to see me.  Planning on having our own Thanksgiving at my home before the D&D session.  I’m still mighly unorganized and really should be revamping the main NPC (or what I like to call the DMPC or even DMsC or DMC)  … maybe I’m getting a tad carried away lol.

Matt was talking about moving out mid December, so Joe and I can start transforming the spare bedroom into the game room with space for a kid (shame on him… Joe’s idea for the game room instead of a nursery, but we need both.  I can use the gaming table for a changing table rofl) ! That’s an idea! !

What else can I update you on…

School is going OK.  I had cramps for two days straight, so it was hard to concentrate, but I managed to get everything turned in on time.  Week two almost over.

My computer is lagging a tad, but WordPress isn’t as bad as FaceBook and AllPoetry.  It’ll get better.  I had to shut her down for the trip and then never used her lol.  Didn’t figure I would, but you never know.

Anyway, that’s all I can really say for today.  I really should get back to cleaning, but it looks much better than it did.  That’s something, right?  Maybe I can get friends and family to help haha.

The Test Results

Finally, the post you’ve all been waiting for.

Let’s just say that the dollar store tests make you pee in a cup.  Not having a cup, I used a plastic spoon.  You know how hard it is to pee into something when there’s a hole bleeding nearby?  Just saying.

Anyway, I was told (for all those a little unsure) by someone who was told by a nurse, that the test results are just as accurate.  Let’s hope she was right.

So I took the little dropper thingy, sucked up some of my urine, did four drops, and the results were immediate.

Positive.

That’s right.  I’m gonna be a mommy!

Joe was sound asleep as I took the test, but not for much longer.  His wonderful happy wife decided to pretty much jump on him screaming “I’m pregnant!!”

To which his reaction was duck, cover, ask “what’s wrong?”

“I’m pregnant.”

“Oh. …….. What are we going to do?”

“I don’t know.  We have nine months to figure that out.”

And yes, women, I was bawling.  I was so happy my emotions were just pouring out of my eyeballs.  I couldn’t sit still.  Hugely ecstatic here.

Forget It!!!

This is the update for the last post… only it’s not.

Because I’m on my period, I can’t test.  “What I suggest is you watch it and call back in a couple of weeks.”

Yeah…

I’m to the point where I’m just going to give up on the whole thing until I miss my next period.

Or whatev.

 

..

Now that I got that out of my system.. sorta…

Joe, trying to cheer me up, said that maybe it will be a Christmas present or something.  After being slightly emotional I looked on my calendar and sure enough, if my period is exactly four weeks from when it started, I am supposed to have a period on Christmas day.  If I miss and get a positive test lol. 

But for now, I’m a bit emotional.  Can you blame me?  I have been waiting for two weeks to get this result, and then they tell me I have to wait even longer.

Funny thing is, I know for a fact that I’m pregnant.  Yeah I have had my doubts lately, but I just KNOW.  The symptoms are there (even more than when I’m just on my cycle) and I just have that feeling.  Several gals that I talked to said I was most likely pregnant, and Rachel thinks I am.

So why am I getting so emotional over having to wait even longer for something I already know?  Because I want confirmation?

Crosshairs

1:06am.

Obviously haven’t gotten the test yet.  Plan on updating and saving as a draft and continueing thus the time stamp.  Waiting for Joe to get to bed, but he’s playing a game, and he gets addicted to them things so easily.

Talked to a few gals on pogo.com ( http://pogo.com ) (I will say that Club Pogo is fairly cheap and not bad.  There are some cute games and real friendly people.)  One is 23 weeks pregnant so the symptoms are still very fresh in her mind.  Heartburn is a side effect apparently.  Also incredible sharp pains.  (She said sharp pains; I assumed similar to heartburn… boy was I wrong… she meant on your knees pain.)  Yeah, an hour later, I learned what she meant.  I almost cried (not a wimp here by the way… I can take a lot of pain and just say ow).  Thankfully, it went away after a few minutes, but that was a few minutes that made me regret wanting a baby.  I am not looking forward to the next nine months, but I am looking forward to the years to come afterwards.  I think I can live with 9 months.  A child is a blessing.

As for the title of my blog this morning, I snapped really bad at Joe. I felt bad too.  I get cranky and I’m wondering who all will be in my crosshairs.  I’m going to warn people not to take it personally.  I’m just the pregnant lady.

Alright time for bed update after AAA.

They Really Liked It Wooo!!!

Well, the first night of the campaign went nothing like I had planned, but I was able to improvise quite well.  With a Paladin in the group, it is going to be difficult, but I wanted Joe to have a character he could develop, and that was it.  Somehow, Stephen’s character has become quite the lady’s man.  Having a druid also proves a bit tough for this campaign, because the first thing he wants to do when he notices dead bodies in the tavern is purify the water, which is not where I want to go with the campaign.  Hopefully next session I can lead him to take a sample and find the alchemy lab, where the group will find out what killed the town.  Otherwise, they will simply guess that the town was poisoned somehow.  They are sometimes hard to lead on, but they are still a fun group to lead, and though I was a bit unorganized (I plan to fix that), they said they had fun and enjoyed it =)

As for what is going on with me, I think God is just having fun.  I’m still going in tomorrow to get a test, though by now I’m half sure I’m not pregnant… I’m going to be really depressed if I’m not, though.

… Actually after I typed that I went to check on my fishies in FishVille (FaceBook ap.. really addicting but not for those who have a life, a job, school) and then used the restroom.. My cycle slowed WAY down and it’s only day three.  My periods are heavy all the way up until they just suddenly quit, so.. *crosses fingers*

But that kind of complicates things a little bit.  We are trying to decide whether or not to move.  We won’t be able to move until the beginning of the year at least (unless we find a job, then we’re probably moving on days off and staying with dad in law until he has to move).  Sadly, they don’t want to let his wife go until possibly April.  He’s leaving in January.  She has to stay until they let her go, or she doesn’t get school paid for by them (nice company to work for if you get fired, I’m gathering.. they even give the temps some let go benefits).

With Joe’s business and Stephen’s ministry (my ministry is online; I can take it anywhere), it further complicates the moving matter.  I strongly believe Joe’s game shop will benefit first in North Platte, because there isn’t so much competition out there.  There are at least a dozen on this side of town.  However, he wants to be here to help Strong Towers (it’s going to be a wonderful program for the youth).  Of course, Stephen is putting that on hold until he graduates next year.  That’s a year to get everything situated.  And of course, whatever I can do with my network (which I’m still trying to grow) to help, I will.  But my niche is here in the online world.

Anyway, I know I didn’t say much about the series thing, but it’s only noon.  I will keep you all posted on the AAA center tomorrow, etc.  Love you all.

Z.

Beginning To Doubt

I was so positive I was pregnant, and my best friend said she thought I was too, but now I’m not so sure.  I mean, my period is mild comparitively, but that doesn’t mean it’s barely dripping.  Just means I’m not in fear of overflow any time soon, if you know what I mean.  Guess I’ll know for sure Monday.  I think God is calling me impatient… grr… and He’s right.  *pout*

On another note, the in-laws are stopping by today (well, Dad in law + his wife) on their way to Ohio.  He said they’d be in after five.  Hopefully not too long after five, as I’m running my campaign today.  Less risk on this side of the table for sure haha. I get to kill people instead of them killing me… long standing joke.  I’m good at hurting people in real life, so let’s see if I can keep the skills in game lol.  Game time at 8!  Can’t wait.  Even have a brand new player at our table for me to torture.  =)

I will keep you all updated as to how the campaign goes as well as what my body tells me and what the ladies at the AAA place tell me.  Even if my period hasn’t let up, I think I’m still going to go.. unless it’s extremely heavy.  Then, I’ll be pretty sure the test will come up negative   And I will cry

Oh The Suspense

A lady from AAA finally called me back apologizing about not getting back sooner.  Apparently, they don’t check their answering machine that often.  Oh well, because I called back later that evening, and they told me to wait till Monday.

I am also waiting to see what my cycle does or doesn’t do.  Right now, I’m finally actually bleeding, but not enough to amount to much in my brain.  ***Let’s take a pause here and apologize to the men who might be reading this.  I apologize.  Resume*** I don’t think I have ever been this light, even first starting out.  The cramps don’t agree with me.  They are cramping almost like normal, but still not that bad.  Enough to be annoying.

It was another sleepy day, except this time I thought I slept much longer than I actually did.  I slept two hours and felt like 1) I hadn’t slept enough.. except 2) I thought I had slept for 5-6 hours.  Talk about mixed signals.  Probably just because I was sleeping deeply.

Speaking of sleeping, I had a dream that Joe was actually thrilled about the baby.  I have decided that he will be happy about the baby but ecstatic about no baby.  *sigh*  But that’s OK.  We were also living here in the dream, even after the baby popped out.  Vision?  Or just dreaming about what’s going on?  Guess we shall find out.

Of course, it was probably just another normal dream, because the trailer wasn’t quite the same.  I just knew it to be the trailer; the place we live now.

The lag is gone (if you couldn’t tell from the longer blog without complaints), so that’s a good thing.  Now, I’m back to blogging as usual.

If you haven’t been able to figure it out (I don’t remember if I told you or not), this is a series about pregnancy.  If I’m not pregnant, it will end in tears.  Otherwise, it will last nine months and then on to the series of parenthood!  I doubt I will be able to blog once a day for the rest of my life about that, but it’s worth a try.  I might also add things that matter at the time other than the kid, but I will definitely keep you all updated.  Especially since this will be my first child (and possibly my only, so I’m hoping for twins.)

I only want one labor.  I want two kids.  We’ll see how this works out.

Is There a Baby or No?

*sigh*

First of all, I tried to download a game but it brought the lag back so my post may be shorter than usual and some areas may not make much sense.  The game has been uninstalled.

Secondly, my body doesn’t even know if it’s pregnant or not.  It’s like trying to have a period but not being able to.  I thought I was starting today but later on, there was nothing.  SO I’m still confused.

Thirdly, Joe and I don’t even agree.  He doesn’t want one, and I REALLY do.

The lag is killing me again, so I’m just going to go.

The Suspense Is Killing Me, Too

Somebody mentioned on one of my FaceBook statuses that I was leaving everyone in suspense.  Well, I decided to add to that suspense by postponing the phone call till Monday.

However, my friend texted me “Don’t you want to know as soon as possible?”

Uh huh… Now I’m in even MORE suspense (oh boy), but I really think I’m pregnant, despite what my body might be trying to tell me.  It’s like trying to start the monthly cycle but not doing a very good job at it.  So here I am blogging about how I can’t wait to find out, and I may call Friday (hoping for a same day appointment).  I’m trying not to call right now, but I have a feeling I’m going to call before 5pm rolls around.  It’s 2:30 now.  I might even call before 3.

You all have no idea how excited I am about this (Ok maybe some of you do).

I was right.  I’m calling now.  One minute after I said I wasn’t going to lol.  Go figure.  They aren’t answering, though… Why not?  Not available that’s why.  Stupid answering machines.  Oh the suspense!!  It’s going to kill me, I swear.  So if I keel over dead right now, you’ll know what killed me.  Even if my head is missing and it looks like a dragon had bbq brains for dinner (or lunch).  It was still the suspense.  Gah!

Anywho…Now that I got that out of my system…

I really don’t have much else to say.  I’ll update when they call me back *crosses fingers*

Yay Another Random Update

Alright, it has been a while since I have blogged, and I’m terribly sorry to have left you in the dark so long.  You must have thought me dead or something (actually, you all are used to my disappearances, I’m sure.  Just keep up with me on FaceBook).

Jobs are still no good.  Joe’s job isn’t exactly treating him the best.  However, we have now broadened our searches to his hometown.  Yes folks, we may be moving.  It’s about 80% in my opinion, but so is me being pregnant… OK, that’s actually 96% in my book.  I want a baby girl so bad.

Of course, that means our poor roommate once again has to find a place to live and will probably end up in shady situations like before.  However, I am done living with him and never want to do it again.  We will not be having him stay with us at the house we will be living in if we move.  Especially when we are going back to having only one bathroom.

I’m pretty excited to turn the spare bedroom into a nursery and the master bedroom into an office/hobby area.  I can finally get my sewing machine in NE.  That is pretty cool.  Been wanting that baby for so long.  See?  I have ideas for that house.  This place is so compact… There’s nowhere to put anything.  That place is big.  Lots of room for storage spaces.  And I’ll be sleeping in a castle haha.

Hopefully, I can get my step-dad to help us move.  He has a truck and trailer, so if we can’t get the jeep up and running, he might be able to drive it up there for us.  Or one of you can buy it off of us for about $1500.  *shrug*  It was an idea.

I hope to blog more often (I know, I know; I’ve said that before) because I’m trying to get my network up.  If you truly like what you see here, please pass it on.  I just try to be real with everyone, and I’m planning on keeping you all updated on whether or not I’m pregnant, my body is just freaking out, or worse.. ectopic, which could kill me.  Thankfully, I have a mommy who knows best.  I’m going to set up an apointment for a free ultrasound tomorrow and see what happens.  If you’re curious about the clinic, please keep checking in.  I plan on reviewing it for you all.  Keep in mind I do live in Omaha, NE, but there could be clinics like this out your way.  But for all you impatient people, here is their link:  http://www.aaacpc.com/

As I said, I will keep you all updated on what the ultrasound shows, etc and whether I have to have surgery or not.

Now, for some business.

I plan on getting just slightly more professional with this blog, since I am trying to gain a network/fan base.  The more people that know me and enjoy what I write, the more people will want to read any books I happen to puslish.

What I mean by more professional is I’m going to start “reviewing” links and locations either in the cyber world or in the real world.  I’m going to put my finds here, thanks to a blog I was forced to read for school (I will say the first few pages kept me interested, but I didn’t feel like reading a twenty page blog.. or even a ten page blog).  I’m just going to talk about things as I see them, starting with the AAA clinic place I plan to go to very soon (just in case I’m about to die).

OK, I’m done being professional.  That wasn’t so bad, was it?

I just want to give a big thanks to my husband.  He is such a sweetheart and such a rock.  We went to McD’s and I really wasn’t hungry and didn’t want to eat anything (my tummy feels really gross, so…) and he still ordered me a 6 pc chicken nugget *sniff*  Just for him, I forced it down.  He is going to be and has been before my counselor in life, so to speak.  He just makes sure I eat

My cousin was so sweet.  She messaged me on FaceBook saying that if I have a baby girl, she will send me clothes from her new baby girl.  They will only be 9 months out of fashion, and I’m sure they’ll be so cute!  I just hope they fit.  Yes, I teared up remembering it earlier while I was on the phone with Mom.  I’m fine now.

It’s 1:30am.  I really should go to bed.  I just wanted to keep you all in the loop of what is happening.

Oh yeah, I’m finally running my first campaign for Dungeons and Dragons.  It starts Saturday at 8pm =)