The Second Time Around
May 19-10
Day 1
Did I just start my period? Went to bathroom. Some spots of blood on underwear but no blood on toilet paper. I didn’t think I was pregnant… Could that really be implantation bleeding? I mean, I’ve been tired lately, but that’s understandable…
Go home. Take a test. Positive. God, I won’t lie to You. I’m scared. I don’t want to lose another one.
Husband is scared for financial reasons, yet he wants twins. OK, we both want twins. The ministries that are getting started are another stress factor, but I look at it this way: If we had a child during the ministries’ lifespans, we would have had to possibly quit our positions in the ministries to raise the infant. This way, we have the infant before the Faires, and since we’re only doing the Faires around here, it shouldn’t be too big of a problem. Yes, I’ve thought about this a great deal in the period of… five seconds.
Day 2
I’ve decided to blog once again about being pregnant. Since this pregnancy is already different than the last, it should provide a little bit of insight different from the last set of blogs; especially if this pregnancy turns out to be full term (or even premature…something other than losing it). And then I can hopefully blog about being a first time parent.
Again, I’m excited. I can’t wait to blog about the weird cravings I suddenly have, the pains, the mood swings, etc. The hunger is already there, but everything tastes weird, so I don’t really want to eat. And so far, there has been no blood other than the implantation bleeding.
I think it’s a boy. That’s my guess as of the second day of knowing. I’m pretty sure the last one was a girl.
I’m nervous about a new baby around my cats. I think I’m going to declaw their front paws in case of them thinking waving arms are playthings. Joe is happy but pretty stressed (have I said that already?)
